July 17, 2005

  • going to:


     


     



     


    Chicago’s very own rising stars artist, Pablo Perea, Havana Gallery, and housemaster Julius “the Mad Thinker", 3 Degrees Global,will join forces to create the ultimate experience, where the party brings the art to life.

    WHERE:
    Darkroom
    2210 West Chicago between Damen and Western

    WHEN:
    8PM-2AM
    8PM-9PM Wine Reception and Artist Meet & Greet
    Complimentary wine courtesy of Vin Divino and hors d'ouevres
    After 9 Vin Divino $5 wine pours

    ADMISSION:
    $7 Advance Tickets , $10 At the Door

    This enchanted summer evening Pablo Perea, a Cuban native, will construct a spontaneous painting inspired by his relationship with Chicago nightlife and the incredible positive energy and second family he has discovered in his new home.

    A self-taught artist, trained as doctor, Pablo has been working successfully as a professional painter for 5 years in both Cuba and the U.S. While living in Cuba Pablo showed with galleries world-wide including Chicago’s very own Havana gallery. In 2003, he made a leap of faith, leaving behind his beloved island, to start anew with the woman who stole his heart- Allison Hill, artist and Director of Havana Gallery.

    Known for nostalgic paintings of his life in Cuba, Pablo will for the first time tackle a different theme and solicit the aid of his friends and audience, including housemaster Julius "the Mad Thinker."

    Don’t miss the rare opportunity participate in the artistic process and witness history unfold, leaving behind a monumental original painting to record the magical events that will transpire!




July 16, 2005

  • dinner menu:


    Black Mountain Sauvignon Blanc, 2002


    Ecuadorian Shrimp Ceviche


    lemon wedge


    Corn Breaded Tilapia Filets in a Tequila Mango Sauce


    Steamed Baby Asparagus in a Lemon White Wine Reduction


    lime wedge


    L'Reisling , 2003


    Canteloupe and Lemon Sherbert

July 15, 2005

  • i cannot believe that i posted up a great piece/image and got only 1 comment. WHAT IS WITH YOU XANGANS???


    it was good. i should not have done that. but i did.just need to clean up aftermath. finally, the score is even. i earned a painting too.


    mars ear is still fucked up. he was givine the wrong abx at county. fuck it is always something.


    weather is sticky. but i dont want to turn on the air.


     

July 12, 2005

  • she in progress


    she is marinating in flavor/soakiong in femininity/bathing in sensuality/basking in the heat of..../she


    i want to overake her/to shake her/dominate between her wings/caress around/the little button/that makes her shake/and scream


    she is marinating in flavor/soakiong in femininity/bathing in sensuality/basking in the heat of..../she


    i need a fix/of she with/a side of whipped cream/don't leave me/so vulnerable/to my own heated dreams


    she is marinating in flavor/soakiong in femininity/bathing in sensuality/basking in the heat of..../she


    i want to paint her/ spectrum red,orange,yellow,pink/slow, stroke, deep/drink

June 17, 2005

  • just talked to my dad. he thought graduation was next week. not sure whether to be furious or happy or sad.

June 15, 2005

  • exit interview complete. not too painful. even got a hug for challenge.


    off to eat lunch. more later.

June 12, 2005

  • quote of the day: this one goes on the bathroom mirror. i should embody the pices that i am more


    when attacked by anger and hate, become like water: fluid and flexible. water cannot be broken, it changes from effortlessly and is impossible to defeat. it will eventually and always overpower whatever it faces. - bumbleananda (1434-1535)


    spunky: eye think eye
    swallow
    accept
    believe
    trust



    bwiles: I like it
    spunky: yea?
    spunkyr: what do you see?
    spunky: i want to play the words into an image
    bwiles: A hand or a foot print
    spunky mmmm...
    bwileswants to directly connect.
    bwilesis now directly connected.
    spunkydoctor: print, i like
    spunkydoctor: foot?
    spunkydoctor: finger?
    spunkydoctor: middle finger?
    bwiles: ya that kind of stuff
    spunky: in god we trust
    spunky perhaps it should align a cross
    bwiles: no we don't!
    spunky: right
    spunky: put it on the cross
    spunky: put the cross on a flag
    bwilesm: to stereo
    spunky: stereo?
    spunky: ok no cross
    spunky: a mug shot and fingerprint?
    bwiles: stereotypical
    spunky: no mug shot
    spunky: eye real eyes
    bwiles: I like the print because of the Identify with identifying a soul
    bwiles: identity
    spunky: mmm... that is cool.
    spunky: you got identity from that?
    bwiles: ya but no face
    bwiles: so all can put their's on
    bwiles: you know a day in the life of shit
    spunky: yea....
    spunky: that is great bwiles---you do get me a bit
    spunky:
    bwiles.com: tiny
    spunky: but i shy from the internal
    spunky: interpretation
    spunky: and suppose i like to hide behind the poke at culture
    spunky: identity yes
    spunky how am i defined?
    spunky this is just one part of a larger piece
    spunky: still harbor ill toward organized religion
    spunkydoctor: i dont want it to define me
    spunky: dont want it to define the country
    spunky: am continuously drawn to this theme but the pieces always come out so layered
    spunky: have written and re-written this multiple times
    spunky: suppose i am still searching
    spunky: its all good though
    spunky: working it out on paper
    bwiles: tinybut i shy from the internalinterpretationand suppose i like to hide behind the poke at cultureidentity yeshow am i defined?this is just one part of a larger piece12:10 PMstill harbor ill toward organized religioni dont want it to define medont want it to define the country
    bwiles: I like this'
    bwiles: I was re reading what you said
    spunky i grew up with it as a large force in my early years
    spunky: its not a moderate cause
    spunky: those pics of your from argentina
    spunky: the symbols on that man
    spunky: look more closely
    spunky: the blue is almost biblical
    spunky: the lettering is in hebrew on his clothes
    spunky: his head is covered by something that looks like what a jewish man wears in synagogue
    bwiles ya
    spunky: juxtapose on that
    spunky: religion has always been the universal government
    bwiles ya Catholics do to

    spunky: catholocism is
    spunky: a theocracy


     


    i am hi


    it is much cooler today but humid--my hair has not totally dried after a shower 2 hrs ago!


    r called me a tough audience and very critical when i said i thought the flick aviation kinda sucked for a scorcese film. alan alda was terrible!


    i am so excited that b was able to get me..this is what i want for the word/image project.


    graduation is june 17. i have accomplished the majority of my errands


    am taking the day off.. a creative day. its supposed to rain anyway.


    is noon too early for a glass of wine? will that make me the alcoholic i was?


    should i send a picture of chris ross as someone who helped me get through residency? no . truce.


    my shoulder is really bothering me today.


     

June 7, 2005

  • gen art went great.. sold out of books mostly..ran out of fliers...made some good contacts..did a good performance..bwiles was awesome..mars behaved. c and k came out...i stayed out too late..sun/mon shifts were brutally taxing as a result..all worth my sleeping in at r's this am.

    it is hot as fuck.

    am off to the roof for naked tanning.

May 27, 2005

  • its a sunny day in the neighborhood, cool spring..sleep really helped.


    tried to post this yesterday but it did not happen


    today: write ekg/htn paper...BLAHHHH..


    my RIGHT, you LEFT


    copy write JANE05


     


     


    there’s nothing left or RIGHT


    handed about planned interactions


    reactions, usually hide a deeper secret


     


    are you keeping secrets


    from me to you, together


    like daytime television where


    she’s just another lay


     


    its out straight for me


    as if it will change who she


    is there actually a reason for


    this, is how we do it


    will only make one happy


     


    i question, why?


    together we stay then


    for our own madness?


    for religious hedonism?


    for love?


     


    there’s nothing LEFT of right


    after i dressed for winter


    most vulnerable parts exposed


     


    wire endings stripped


    bare tears dropped


    ashes crumbled in trays


    shattered into dis-array


    signaling interruption


    for those able to hear


    life fade


     


    like cracked velvet


    fingers intertwined in lace


    with desire winter smiled


    wide eyed and frozen


    ends touch warm  sensations


    adjusting to tiny flares


    of wicked stares


     


    how do i feel?


    like yesterday’s fruit


    shriveled up in a bowl


    as decoration for a tabletop


    smelling like yesterday’s news


    mixed with the sweet smell


    of puckered poison lips


     


    there’s nothing left or RIGHT


    to say that will make me heal


    -ing cannot occur without


    peace, space, time


     


    god save forgive


    for a gift of love


    can be given


    when we choose


    to believe or not


    to believe is to


    have faith or


    to have fear


    is to trust or


    suspect


     


    to live or  relive


    back to life


    as we know


    is to know


    this is no


    grey only


    black and white


    minds think alike


     


    so i think of


    your two sided


    bipolar thoughts


    half full, twice divided


    displaced, misplaced


    out of place, out of order


    emotionally insecure


     


    there is nothing to your RIGHT


    there is nothing to your LEFT


    you are simply


    alone


     

May 12, 2005

  • i am almost speechless..but the 50mg may be making me more rational...or irrational...


    either way...yes, this email comes from a fellow resident colleague..the email and the responses thus far sadly expose such embarrasing failure as americans....isnt to be american to be radical and rebellious and different and fight for the GOOD fight...didnt we break outta stuffy england for FREEDOM and rights?


    yet medical care is not a RIGHT in this country. it is a privelage. economic darwinism at its finest.


    what is so utterly maddening is where do we begin as physicians to reclaim control over the art, practice, and delivery of medicine? this must occur soon.  and how do we define ourselves as any sort of "god fearing," christian valued type culture when we willingly invoke economic darwinism and eat our young alive?


    this is why i need 50 mg..probably 100 mg..


    Dear All,
    > >I have just learned from one of our aweseome
    > Spanish interpreters that as of May 20, 2005 we
    > will no longer have Spanish interpreters in
    > house on Fiday and Saturday nights from 11p to
    > 7am, due to cuts in overtime.  This is an
    > outrageous and unacceptable move by the Stroger
    > administration, and should be strongly
    > protested by all of us who depend on this
    > critical service.  The administration's view is
    > that we can use operator/AT&T hook up service
    > to provide the interpretation, but during our
    > busiest times, this is inpractical.  I urge
    > each of you to call the Stroger administration,
    > call the local newspapers and the t.v media,
    > call the office of civil rights, and force the
    > administration to correct this ridiculous
    > action.
    > >For all of you who are fluent in Spanish, this
    > move will affect you as well, since many of
    > your colleagues may call on you to interpret
    > (even more than we already do!)
    > > Please, please make  your voices heard on
    > this critical issue..it affects our patients
    > and our ability to do our jobs.
    > >


    RESIDENT RESPONSE:


    hours worked: not more than 79.99 per week (not
    more than 29.99 consecutively)
    overtime paid: $0.00
    Senior resident book money (stipend) for fiscal
    year 2005: $0.00

    Resident physicians: still the best bang for the
    buck when it comes to patient care.


    ESTEEMED MALE ATTENDING RESPONSE:


    Hi      ,

    If your interpreters are so awsome and so "concerned", why don't they, out of their genuine goodness of their hearts, take turns working the weekend midnight shifts to help out the poor non-english speaking hispanics.

    Attending.


     


    ESTEEMED FEMALE ATTENDING RESPONSE:


    Although I cannot ask you not to express your right to speak your mind and as I am sure you are all aware on some level I clearly agree with you,  I ask you all to consider a few things:

    1.  Stroger signs our paychecks.

    2.  This situation is not unique.  The whole hospital is suffering from the cuts.

    3.  The executive medical staff is aware of the consequences of these cuts and is in the process of responding since patient care is likely to be effected throughout the hospital (and in some departments siggnificantly more than ours)

    4.  Our patient population is growing and our resources are not.  

    5.  There is only so much money.  Although many who work here think that $$$ is not spent as effectively as it could be (myself included), we do have the largest functioning county hospital that still provides free medication and care with little if any support from the State.

    6.  If you expose this as the travesty that you suggested, what will be gained??  Will more money appear?? If it does, will we see any of it?  Will the taxpayers say "oh please raise our taxes, the interpreter's are not available 24-7"?  

    To be a doctor here as the resources seem to dry up more and more is frustrating for all of us who are trying to provide optimal patient care but the reality is that medical care is not a right in this country. We have to do the best we can with what we have.  I will provide you with updates regarding progress may be the medical staff but I suspect this is an uphill battle on an icy slope.  

    Finally, try to do the best you can with what you have and realize without Cook County many of these people would not be able to get care at all.   


    MANAGEMENT:


    There are a lot of rumors and possible scenerios being floated out there to help remedy and respond to a true budget crisis and a negative portrayal in the press.

    The possibility of no overnight interpreters is a possibility but will not be implemented until the earliest until 5/20. as you know  alot changes in a week. I have prepared the ED with numerous telephones for 3 way calls and easy access to ATT in case this happens-I will be on call and available if we go live-if this is a disaster I would not hesitate to call the senior administrator and ask for an immediate remedy.  We  must advocate for our patients and our department but we must be open minded to changes. I am working on making the best out of the worst and am open to other suggestions. I would urge all not to get involved with the press and commisioners as this will usually hurt us

    On a good note the ED in the first 1/3 of this fiscal year has brought in almost as much medicaide money as we did in all of last fiscal year-keep filling out the billing sheets and the clerks are doing an excellent job get insurance info-administration knows this and this will help-keep marking any and all procedures
    Thanks


    edit: or one could look at this in the positive and hope that this budget cuts teaches people who live in america to learn fucking english!!!


    edit: one could look at this as no time to be diplomatic...workers rights! god dammit!


    edit: one could freak out and go smoke up to kill the pain of the implications of such issues and its impact on my sorry little life.