sunrise was beautiful, but hazy. there have been rain showers here today. hope this helps er volume. i am SOOOOOOOOOO jittery about being alone for the first time.

arrived in lake havasu. town of 37,000. cute ranch style. locals look like they might be typical county quality nasty. er is actualy large--15 beds. am VERY nervous about being on call overnite by myself.that is when critical things happen. am i prepared?

am up at 430am in order to be tired and go back to bed around 10am.

am going to find a sunrise spot.

have 50 minutes.

heat here is 105 degrees but the AC makes me too cold and is not that tolerable. i miss my sweet pea.

lake havasu confirmed. higher rate achieved. i will start there aug 14. work my ass off. vacate aug 24-sept 9. then gallup sept 10-30? then lake geneva oct 1-7? then boards.

argh. am exhausted. i need a vacation.

slept. well? dont really think so.

no evening call from r. in the face of things. that kinda irritates me.

to work on job today after taking yesterday off to sort out sister.

ugh. am not mentally there yet. perhaps coffee and breakfast.

at least it is sunny.

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Untitled 8.9.05

Un-spun from the hum of
blurring rhythms Sound bytes stun guns
Trigger targeted memories in rigor

Moments hook hangs threaded
Gallows swings noose necked
Singing hymns of torn sheets

Un-do the done
Doing ties undue
Blank paper lies white

Noted in Trust
Bellowed from breast
Snapped smartly in protest

copyright JANE’05

When Mercury is retrograde, everyone's thinking is more introspective and we tend to think about issues and concerns which relate to the sign involved. With Mercury retrograde in Leo, people with this sign prominent in their charts will be especially prone to such introspection. There is little choice but to reconsider our personal views and opinions about life. There is, however, an opportunity to gain insight into our own ego.

Mercury retro in Leo brings intellectual confusion and mixups through egotism, undue dramatics and acting out, along with needless extravagance and bombastic claptrap, as this position can be prone to exaggeration and histrionics. There is a tendency to be wordy and often to exaggerate—though unconsciously. Mercury in Leo gives high ideals and aspirations, so be sure that your goals are clear and that all petty details are under control. Kind-hearted and sympathetic ideals come to the fore but can also come a cropper due to too much focus on the "big picture" and not enough concern for the necessary connections. Public figures and leaders may appear haughty, proud and passionate and conflict over misunderstood ideals is a possibility. Children can be fickle and inconstant, while those who indulge in gambling are likely to fall in a heap, due to overconfidence. Keep sensual desires under control, especially if recording them in words, as for example in an email, which may just wind up in unexpected and embarrassing places.

All areas of communication are affected, especially in any dramatic or leadership-oriented activity, or matters of state, or to do with children, romance and creativity in general. This period brings travel snafus and missed appointments of all kinds. Documents can go astray. Be sure to carry a diary and refer to it often.

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going to get velum, print, target.

burning man packing today.

art tomorrow

more packing

edit: print complete. splattered whiteout on copier and let it rip. came out good. now, wipe wood, sand, paint, mount. done

target errands done.
tomorrow: pack for the man

project:
2x4x18.5x5.875
nails in width horizontal
piano wire suspension

red paint

paramaount poet

the financial advisor meeting was painful. so many decisions. time for a second opinion. the guy was late. for the second time. will have his handiwork evaluated, then decide whether to hire.

decided to buy powerbook g4 laptop. education discount gets me bigger discount. and a free ipod. yay! just need to go to store.

began process for publishing REDISFORREBELLION on lulu.com. still learning the process.

turned off AC today, finally.

waiting for layout on paramount poet for gl. got some shelving that i might be able to sand/paint and mount on.

taking comments on the following

artist

statement

When photographing a wedding, I record in black and white. Black and white allows me to capture the art of the moment without the noise color can generate. It is revealing of instants of unguarded honesty that deserve to be captured in the unimposing ease of natural light. I use light, line, and shadow to distill human emotion and frame an emerging love story with timeless style.  Black and white gives me the freedom to focus on the composition of sentiment and the artistic eloquence of the event [wedding].  The result is not the standard wedding photo journal. It is a work of art, shot from a fresh and well executed angle of elegance.

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