July 4, 2007

  • it sounds like bagdhad in my backyard.
    congruent triangles define synonomous

June 24, 2007

May 9, 2007

  • much needed time at home. i am however unmotivated to get to the business tasks at hand. they will have to wait for the weekend. instead today i allowed myself to enjoy the sunshine, ponder the free paint now stacked in the garage, and write a few lines.

    E ≠ i + y

    E represents to me
    the sum of the
    two I(s)/ eye(s)
    we once had
    and between them is Y
    but Y has lost its meaning
    a satellite, sometimes consonant
    a question, an answer
    lost now in the periphery
    until even the E of ego
    goes and leaves me
    the only I

April 20, 2007

  • head cold.
    negotiated new rate that will help for summer plans.
    new poem

    i want

    i want to lick the sunshine from your arms
    while drinking a glass of sun with
    artificial sweetener swirls
    inside of my mixing emotions

    i want to smile the way you do
    with tints of golden yellow daisy petals
    that water glide on belief, love, hope, serenity
    and stick to reflections of eye

    i want to walk in dry sandals
    when the earth rotates its tears
    skipping over the details and heading straight
    to hopscotch drawings of chalk hearts

    but i falter with every other step
    forgetting how to tie my shoelaces
    tripping on sidewalks covered in thorns
    each cut bleeding me one more step
    closer to illumination?

    copyright JANEisnotplain 4.07

February 21, 2007

February 2, 2007

  • bbbrrrrrr...

    freyman’s integral pathway (p,q) = e-1/4 (p+q2)?[(q+ip)/ 2]/ n!

    it is the incoherent super-position
    of different integral faiths that
    destructively interferes with the
    language of quantum mechanics

    often one encounters integrals
    where the exponent is not purely quadratic
    from the outset but rather contains
    both quadratic and linear pieces

    to prove this identity
    eliminate the linear term
    the constant factor scales a-z
    yet quantum mechanics remains
    fully present and flexible

    [we] insert position and momentum
    respectively making use of
    the clear rationale behind
    the resolution of vector identity

    quantum particles have more freedom
    than their classic counterparts

    all the information about any
    autonomous quantum particles
    is contained within the matrix
    of elements of its time evolution operator

    the time evolution operator
    describes this dynamic evolution
    under the influence of
    Hamiltonian time

    H = T + V or H = E + R

    where R is a positive definite
    real symmetric n-dimensional matrix
    and V is a real vector diagonalized by
    orthogonal transformation into
    E, a mono-kinetic Euclidean

    as the matrix elements express
    amplitude for a particle to
    propagate between points
    it becomes the propagator
    of harmonic oscillation

    in the matrix of elements
    the discrete set becomes dense
    over time and space becomes
    a continuous curve

    this smooth variation of paths
    contributes significantly toward
    the motivation and the application
    of a limit [less] continuum

    proving that u and i may be
    independent complex numbers that
    need not be related by the
    simple conjugation of coherent states and paths integral

    only by love.

    copyright JANEisnotplain 1.07

January 29, 2007

  • trying something new, and bold.

    freyman’s integral pathway (p,q) = e-1/4 (p+q2)?[(q+ip)/ 2]/ n!

    quantum particles have more freedom
    than their classic counterparts and

    all the information about any
    autonomous quantum particles
    is contained within the
    matrix of elements of its
    time evolution operator

    the time evolution operator
    describes this dynamic evolution
    under the influence of
    Hamiltonian time

    H = T + V or H = E + R

    where R is a positive definite
    real symmetric n-dimensional
    matrix and V is a real vector
    diagonalized by orthogonal transformation
    into E mono-kinetic Euclidean

    as the matrix elements express
    amplitude for a particle to
    propagate between points
    it becomes the propagator
    of harmonic oscillation

    often one encounters integrals
    where the exponent is not purely quadratic
    from the outset but rather contains
    both quadratic and linear pieces

    to prove this identity
    eliminate the linear term
    the constant factor scales a-z
    yet quantum mechanics remains
    fully present

    it is the incoherent super-position
    of different integral faiths that
    destructively interferes with the
    language of quantum mechanics

    [we] insert position and momentum
    respectively making use of
    the clear rationale behind
    the resolution of vector identity

    in the matrix of elements
    the discrete set becomes dense
    over time and space becomes
    a continuous curve

    this smooth variation of paths
    contributes significantly toward
    the motivation and the application
    of a continuum limit [less]

    proving that u and I may be
    independent complex numbers
    that need not be related by the
    simple conjugation of
    coherent states and
    paths integral

    only by love.

    copyright JANEisnotplain 1.07

February 11, 2006

  • chicago-->fort madison iowa-->peoria--->bloomington/normal--> chicago

    i am here for support
    i am here to make sure she gets paid
    i am here to carry bags and equipment
    i am here to take pictures and video
    i am here

    it is snowing today
    i am always hungry
    ft mad was so awful
    peoria not much better
    i am such a glutton for love
    hopefully the love we make is enough to sustain
    my stomach still growls
    i am in and out of open
    want to write, but cant
    such is life

    ash, hope you are managing.

December 13, 2005

  • tired. nite was long, 2 hrs of sleep was enough to get me to next site but was a tease that will send me back toward napping.

    72 hrs of work offered for 4 days. tough, but need to take it while i can get it.

    she booked extra days on her cruise. i am trying like hell to schedule around it so that we can go together. will be nonstop on the go. difficult. but hopefully doable. i am doomed to be perpetually exhausted. i am decidedly in love. it makes me do crazy and irrational things like be sleepless and take the shape of a suitcase. yet, i refuse to have regrets. i refuse to lose opportunities.

    tookie: RIP. capital punishment is not the answer. was this man rehabilitated? all arguements present a slippery slope. no doubt, arnold has sealed his own political fate. we are forever in conflict with our selves as self. are we god enough to exact such permanent punishment? or thou shalt not kill because we lack the godlike qualities we think are necessary to make such decisions. the latter. yet we seem to behave as if we are god, and invoke a variety of cliches when it suits our human desires.

    more later...must sleep.

    edit: the star fell out. i am terribly superstitious. every time that happens, something very bad follows. managed to reapply it with superglue right away. hope it stays. slept fitfully , not enough, still tired but must stay up now.
    need passport for cruise. working on moving mountains in an already exhausted world.
    the plan is to write
    date with self at applebees for mediocre food. at least i got frequent flier miles and a beer.

    edit: i know why you stayed.