December 13, 2005

  • tired. nite was long, 2 hrs of sleep was enough to get me to next site but was a tease that will send me back toward napping.

    72 hrs of work offered for 4 days. tough, but need to take it while i can get it.

    she booked extra days on her cruise. i am trying like hell to schedule around it so that we can go together. will be nonstop on the go. difficult. but hopefully doable. i am doomed to be perpetually exhausted. i am decidedly in love. it makes me do crazy and irrational things like be sleepless and take the shape of a suitcase. yet, i refuse to have regrets. i refuse to lose opportunities.

    tookie: RIP. capital punishment is not the answer. was this man rehabilitated? all arguements present a slippery slope. no doubt, arnold has sealed his own political fate. we are forever in conflict with our selves as self. are we god enough to exact such permanent punishment? or thou shalt not kill because we lack the godlike qualities we think are necessary to make such decisions. the latter. yet we seem to behave as if we are god, and invoke a variety of cliches when it suits our human desires.

    more later...must sleep.

    edit: the star fell out. i am terribly superstitious. every time that happens, something very bad follows. managed to reapply it with superglue right away. hope it stays. slept fitfully , not enough, still tired but must stay up now.
    need passport for cruise. working on moving mountains in an already exhausted world.
    the plan is to write
    date with self at applebees for mediocre food. at least i got frequent flier miles and a beer.

    edit: i know why you stayed.